what is left

There are many unanswered questions
But he is not there to provide you with the answers
There is an unbearable amount of sadness
But he is not around to brighten your day
There is disbelief
That he would ever make you feel this way
But he has..
There is such a feeling of helplessness
You do not know what to do
There is anger
Because you simply did not see it coming
There is a whirlwind of confusion
You do not understand how this all happened
There is stupidity
For ever thinking he felt the same way for you, as you did for him.
And then there is this..
The heavy weight
That weighs on your heart when you think of his smile, smiling at you.
The feeling of pure content
Just being close to him
The butterflies
When you would see him
The nervousness
When he would look into your eyes
The electric pulse
When he would reach for your hand
The over whelming sense of knowing
That this one was different from all the rest
And all the feelings you thought you would never feel again
But you did..
This time felt different
Only to have it all taken away
And you suddenly remember the last time you felt this way
And the reason you swore you would never let anyone else in
But you did..